Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Wishing for change

It has been almost a year since I met Boy. He had changed so dramatically. I look at pictures and see a little boy emerging over the past months. What I wish I saw was a change in me. I am still pudgy, I am still tired. I am still not getting real time with my husband. I am starting to becoming annoyed and negative. I want time and energy and patience to talk about my annoyances, but it is so hard to communicate these days. Either way, I have a stunning little man who brings a good deal of joy, at least that is something right?

2 comments:

chlorinejenny said...

I feel the same way as you. I struggle with the same issues. I am so blessed to have Littleman, and at the same time I dream of living in the city in an awesome appartment going out with friends, wearing cute clothes, dating, etc. etc.

But I always go back to how I couldn't live without my little guy.

If I ever figure out the formula of having it all, I'll let you know!

Working Mom said...

YEAH! The worst part about being a mom is the feeling you are either weird or alone in these battles. It is so hard to talk to hubby about these things, but, we will continue to try!